Friday, September 25, 2015

Go Hard or Go Home



Ok you shouldn’t go hard all the time but there’s a time and place for it. I’m finally learning in the pool, that is a lot of the time. My exact comments from a hard swim today were “Had to fight like hell for those 100 times like seeing spots and not properly functioning by the end.” Katie’s response to this was that I should be working that hard all the time in the pool.  I ended my comments with “It was good! (I say after the fact, not in the moment).” Although going hard can really REALLY suck in the moment at times, I always feel great about it afterwards. There are always the battles in my mind between going hard and just giving up but nothing feels better than doing the work I was supposed to do. Giving up makes me feel like crap. Not physically, but mentally.



I’d been thinking how my schedule looked light in running considering a have a half marathon in 6 weeks. I assumed this was mostly because my body was still recovering. Those thoughts certainly don’t exist anymore. When I read my schedule for next week I have very mixed feeling. First off the total hours spent running is more than I’ve ever done. Secondly, some of the paces scare the crap out of me. Despite all of this, looking at my schedule put a big smile on my face. The work isn’t meant to be easy. If it was easy, everyone would do it. Ok maybe not everyone but more people. I asked for this work. I want it. Yes, it will be hard at times but that’s what I need to get better. And I truly do want to see how far I can go, how much I can improve. There’s only one way to find out. Bring it on.

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Road to Recovery



After my first half marathon in February I had bad “knee” pain which turned out to be my IT band. Despite this pain, like an idiot I was back to running the next day. This pain turned into a fully IT band injury which took months to completely go away after physical therapy because I insisted on continuing to train. This time I am properly recovering after my HIM. Partially because I’m a good athlete that listens to my wise coach but also because I learned from my mistake.

People talk about having a lot of free time and going crazy from lack of training when tapering. Why did no one warn me about recovery week?! Poor Bill, I think I’m driving him crazy with my bouncing off the wall energy and my mind going all over the place. He was probably so looking forward to me training less because in his mind it would mean good quality time together but he might not think that anymore. Instead I spend my free time planning out house renovations and bugging him about “this should be the next project” and “how long do you think this will take” and “when can we start?”. I think soon he might be pushing me out the door to train in hopes I’ll calm down.

I definitely fell off the bandwagon for food. I told myself I was allowed 1 week of eating what I want. I realize eating like crap while my body is trying to heal is not exactly the best fuel for recovery but I don’t care and I think I deserve it. Now I’m not the type to go out a buy a bunch of fast food and drink soda or just drink for a week. I am however the type to eat chocolate in some form every day. And lots of peanut butter. And just sugar in general. I’m starting to get concerned about the sugar withdrawals I’m going to have. Sunday it’s time to whoop my butt back into eating better and I’m hoping to further improve my previous diet. I will eat you green food! Until then, I love you melted chocolate and peanut butter…yum. Go ahead, judge, I do not care!

Yesterday was the first day I’ve been on the bike since my race. All week I’d had weird feelings about taking my bike back out on the road. For some reason I didn’t want to face cars or the challenge of keeping a certain cadence and low HR on hills. Instead I decided to set up my trainer on my deck so I could enjoy the weather and avoid cars. What was I thinking? I hate the trainer! There’s something about the lack of moving forward that makes it seem like much harder work. My HR did not agree with what my effort felt like. My speed was pathetic, my power number which I only know on the trainer was just plain sad. Hopefully this is all because I’m still recovering.

Today will be the first time I’ve run since the race which is a long break from running for me. I’m looking forward to it. Puppy is looking forward to it as well. The race gave me a confidence boost in the running department. I’ve always said “I’m a slow runner” despite the fact that I’ve been slowly improving over the last year. For the longest time I wouldn’t even consider myself a runner. Now I feel like I can proudly call myself a runner. Do a still have a long way to go? Absolutely. But I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I am rarely proud of myself in any aspect of my life so for me to acknowledge it is a big deal. So I will say it again while I still have this feeling… I am proud of this girl who couldn’t run a mile without stopping to walk a little over a year ago. It’s all about the journey and I’m loving it right now.   

Monday, September 14, 2015

White Lake 70.3 Race Report



Pre-Race 

Morning started off at 4am when I promptly started eating breakfast. After showering and getting ready, Bill and I left the hotel and drove to the race site. Did the usual body marking, chip pickup, transition set up, blah, blah.  Always enjoy starting out when it’s still dark out because being near water when the sun rises is always beautiful. 

With transition area all set up and the clock ticking down to go time there was nothing left to do but warm up. I put my music on to help pump me up and went out. About 30 seconds into my jog a car pulled over and someone opened the door right in front of me. In my attempt to avoid the door my foot landed half on the road and half on the grass which was a bit of a drop down. This of course resulted in me tripping and falling. As I bounced back up and said “shit” loudly the girl who opened the door just looked at me. Thanks a lot. So that was a great way to kick the day off but at least it wasn’t during the race and it was just surface pain. I told myself this was my one thing for the day, nothing else was going to happen. Moving on.

We headed to the dock where I watched the first few waves head out while I tried to clear my head. My first half. This will be a fun day, right, now get in the water. 

Swim: 43:36, 26/50 

Water temp was low 80s so not wetsuit legal. This was the first time I swam in my tri kit and my 60 sec warm up in the water made me realize the top acted like a scope probably because I have no boobs to fill it out.

I was in the fourth wave with all the females minus the super-fast ones that went in the first wave. Some of us were talking about aggressive swimmers and joking how there’s no need to kick or grab us, we will gladly get out of your way. Nice way to lighten the mood before go time. 3…2...1… and we were off. I tried to find feet to draft behind but no luck so instead I focused on my stroke and keeping my effort steady. I was also very focused on sighting often since I have a tendency to go off course. Before the race started I counted the number of round buoys between triangle turn buoys so I’d have an idea of how far I’d have to go and what to look for.


Before I even got half way I was starting to pass green caps from the wave before me. I was feeling pretty good! So I’m swimming along feeling so good about myself and thinking “I’ve made such good progress with sighting during OWS” and “look how I’m passing people” which then turned into “where the hell is everyone?”. Somewhere between the last turn buoy and the finish I’m pretty sure I’m hearing someone yell so I finally stop and hear a guy on a paddle board yelling I’m way off course and that I’m heading back towards the start. DOH! Apparently I remembered the number of round buoys on the last straight section incorrectly so I started looking for another one when there were no more left and instead found the very first buoy near the start which I was swimming towards. It didn’t help that my goggles were fogged up and a bit scratched on the inside so I was just having troubles seeing anything in the first place. Just a tad bit in the wrong direction… 
 

All and all this really was not that big of a deal and I knew that while I was swimming to correct my mistake. I like swimming and the swim takes up such a small percentage of the day so if there’s one place I’d pick to waste time, it’s there. However, in the back of my mind I kept thinking bad things happen in 3s. First the fall, now swimming off course, what’s my next little hiccup?

Once I looked around for a few seconds and found out where the dock was I picked up the pace (or at least effort) a bit. I didn’t really get back on course until the very end when I started swimming near other people right before the dock. Got up the ladder and started running down the dock. I saw a man with a camera at the end of the dock that looked a lot like my husband but Bill was definitely wearing a bright pink Disney princess half marathon shirt and this man was in a white shirt that said Race Crew. Right as I passed him I realized it was Bill and somehow while I was swimming he became part of the crew? I later learned that the race director approached him about the photos he was taking because they couldn’t find a professional photographer being it was a small race. Bill agreed to give him the photos as long as it gave him access to anywhere which included places spectators were not allowed.


T1: 3:23, 22/50 

I was extremely fortunate in where my bike rack was located. I was pretty far away from the swim finish and run start but it was very close to the bike start and finish. Plus I was on the very end of the rack so I had plenty of space. I really couldn’t have asked for a better spot. Nothing terribly eventful during transition. Dumped my stuff, put stuff on me and in my shirt and then I went.


Bike: 3:02:08, 14/60 

As I left on the bike I once again saw Bill in his Race Crew shirt and asked him how he got it but had no idea what he said. I started out the ride closer to the upper part of my HR range. I had my screen set to show HR, cadence and time. Occasionally I would flip screens to see average speed and boy was I surprised to see upper 19mph. I really had no idea what to expect for speed because long rides tend to be at an easier pace and what little racing experience I have I know you ride surprisingly faster during a race. This however was faster than I expected. I knew a 3 hour bike split would be about 18.6mph and for a while I was feeling pretty confident I could do it. This became a sort of goal I set as I was riding but in the end no matter what I was thrilled with how I was doing.
A few miles in a passed a female with 27 written on her leg. This was one of two other females in my age group. I was thrilled because I wasn’t sure I could pass either. I worked through my nutrition plan perfectly and had zero stomach issues. In fact the food went down easier than it does on long training rides. I had to pee and I decided that stopping to use a porta potty would be bad all around for me so I tried to pee while riding. I came so close but I just couldn’t. Something about pedaling and hitting little bumps made it impossible for my body to let go. I backed up on effort to see if that would help and it didn’t. So I picked it back up and went my merry way.

Around mile 40 it started to rain and by mile 46 it turned into a downpour. Having a flat, pretty straight course with not that many people at least reduced the chances of crashing. It still slowed me down a bit though. I decided this was my third bad luck and that nothing else would go wrong from then on out. Given that the three things were all pretty minor, I’ll take it. At this point I really had to pee and I figured since it was pouring it wouldn’t make any difference since it would all wash away. Success was found but at the expense of getting out of aero and I had to stop pedaling. I figured that little time I lost was time well spent. The rain let up finally and pretty much stopped by the end of the ride.


As the ride went on, my average HR started getting lower and I could watch my average speed drop from high 19s to ending at 18.4mph. Could I have pushed harder? Yes. However, that could have resulted in a slower run and I said going into this that it was all about the run. Therefore I’m happy with my decision to not push too hard. I will say there are positives and negatives about a small local race. On the bike I realized for me the lack of people was a negative for motivation. It was nice not having too many drafting issues though. For the most part I could always see someone but a lot of times they were far away. But once I started getting close to someone that’s when a competitive side of me kicked in and without even noticing I’d start to pick up the pace because I’d want to pass them. If I was around people more often I think that would motivate me to go a bit harder the whole time. 

T2: 1:47, 6/50 

First thing I noticed getting off the bike was wow the outside of my feet really hurt. It might be from the shoes I rarely wear? I re-racked my bike and sat down to change shoes one, because everything was soaking wet and it was difficult to get my socks on and two, I tried to pee but couldn’t. Stood back up and debated for a few seconds about what to bring. I changed my plan last second and decided to leave the hat, keep my glasses and not bring the packet of Chomps (still had a full pack from my ride in my shirt) or GUs (which was originally intended as a backup). Started running and once again noticing foot pain and now butt pain.


Run: 2:00:22 11/50 

My plan was to start out no faster than 9:30 and then as the race progresses see if I could go faster. As the miles went by I was thrilled with my progress because I kept negative splitting. That turned into my goal to keep going a bit faster each mile. However, I knew that could only last so long. For the first 10 miles though, I was doing VERY well and I was very happy with myself. My average paces were: 9:37, 9:43, 9:38, 9:26, 9:21, 9:16, 9:12, 9:12, 9:11, 9:08, 9:17, 9:20, 8:45. According to my watch I only ran 12.92 which is how I ended up with a 2 hour split.


My stomach was feeling solid. Although it was cloudy and not really hot I could feel myself warming up fast. The cold towels were nice in theory but I learned after the first one I grabbed that it wouldn’t stay around my neck and holding it did me no good. I instead would grab them at the start of the aid station to dump water over me and then drop it at the end of the station. I had 24oz OSMO which I drank over the first hour until it was gone. After that I switched to whatever cola made it in my mouth plus a lot on me and water which mostly was thrown on my face and down my shirt. I slowly ate my Chomps over the run for only 200 calories. Towards the end my stomach was feeling iffy so I only took in enough liquid to get me through the last few miles.

Around mile 10 I was starting to go downhill and I knew I was. This was around the time when I passed a female and I think the only time I didn’t check her leg for her age. A few seconds later she passes me back. I check her leg. 29…shit. This is the other female in my age group I’ve been wondering about and she’s right in front of me running about the same pace as me. This is the only time I’ve truly known what it means to “race”. I was hurting and the negative thoughts were coming in. I was doing all I could to stay a few yards behind her. She knew I was there too, she kept looking back to see I was there. During age stations she wouldn’t stop and I would slow down for a second to grab coke and water to dump on myself and then had to force myself to catch back up. Picking it back up really hurt. At this point I was thinking, this is your first half, this is supposed to be fun. Just let her go, who cares what place you get, it’s your first half. Then my head started yelling back. NO! Screw this! First place is RIGHT THERE! You have been at this for over 5 and half hours, you can do this for 2 more miles. You are NOT giving up now!
 And that was that, I did not give up. I ran a few yards behind her for almost 30 minutes. Just as we were nearing the final turn to come back into the finishing area I knew this was my time to use whatever I had left in my tank and I took off. I quickly passed her and I kept looking behind me so afraid she was going to pick up the pace as well to pass me back. But she didn’t. At the final straight away into the finish I tried to pick it up even more just to be safe. Finish line crossed, first half done! I got first place in my age group by 7 seconds.


Overall: 5:51:14, 1/3 AG, 10/50 overall 
                           

After I stopped running I realized just how much I hurt all over. The one thing they don’t tell you about getting 1st place is the tallest box is really high when you are already hurting.


And as my reward the pig feast started (and is still going on 3.5 lbs gained later). Looking back the combo of OSMO Preload, OSMO Active, cola, water, Gatorade, Mountain Dew, milkshake, mojito and sangria was probably  a bit too much in the liquid category for one day. Would probably explain why I was woken up the next morning with horrible stomach pain.


Overall I’d say this race was a total success. Despite my few hiccups I couldn’t be happier with how my day went. A few months before the race I calculated what I thought I could do the race in and I beat that by an hour. I was convinced my run would be in the 10-11 pace and surprised the hell out of myself that I managed a 9:19 pace. I have Katie to thank for a lot but especially for making me feel confident that I could push for faster run time. She did an awesome job getting me ready for this race. My swim time was slower than expected (even taking extra distance into account) but I honestly don’t care one bit. When I realized how far off course I went I actually started laughing, in my head of course otherwise I would have choked on water. I wanted this to be a happy day and it was. This is a feeling I want to hold onto. This is why I race. I’d like to think my mom was watching over me and I hope I made her proud.


My dad asked me if I was relieved it was over. Relief is the opposite of how I feel. I now understand the racing blues. I’m sad it’s over. I’m been working up to this for so many months and now it’s done. Which is why I did this a few weeks ago…
Oh and I might have just done this…


Super excited for spring and what rest of next year will hold for me! Now I have to wait until next spring… it’s so far away!